I felt deflated. But more than deflated, I felt tired. For
anyone that has trained for anything big, or built up a huge amount of energy
and effort for something, when that is suddenly taken away, there is a sort of
nothingness. I came to the conclusion that
maybe this opportunity had just been too surreal to ever actually manifest into
anything real. I fully understood the need for
postponing (or as I saw it cancelling) this was a ridiculously busy
woman, she had children, a family, a huge career. Without being given another
date, it felt like this was it. Grateful I hadn’t shouted about it or spoken
about this opportunity to more than a couple of loved ones, I finally slept.
*
I flip backwards and forwards, between tight brackets, of my
dream job. Which sector I want to be in: film, lingerie, pure corsetry, bridal,
red carpet wear etc. Although I feel specialising in corsetry gives me a bit of
an edge.
I’m sure it’s on everyone’s CV, ‘I thrive working in a
team, but can also work independently’. It really is true. I would describe
myself far more extrovert than introvert. I adore meeting new people and would
always rather grab a coffee with someone than speak over the Internet. Despite
this, I do crack on well when I have a deadline to meet and can hide myself
away. Someone described my personality type as, ‘someone who expels energy when
on their own, and recharges in the company of others’. They couldn’t be more
right.
So what relevance does this have? Well I really want to work
as part of a team. Film and theatre are the leading choices at the moment, with
my own freelance work on the side. I really need to win that BAFTA… I just love
being able to make ‘something out of nothing’. Taking a piece of cloth and
transforming it with careful cutting and stitching is real magic.
*
I rested for a day, re-watched some favourite movies (Big
Fish and Blade Runner worked their magic) and then I received another email.
Her PA had been so fabulous, and she had kept to her word. This time I had a
date, a time and a location.
With the car stuffed full of garment bags, G&T cupcakes
and look-books we headed to London.
As we entered the gate, I certainly had first date butterflies.
She was standing there, right in front of us, barefoot
and guiding us into her parking space. Was this actually happening?
Oh my Gosh.......this is so exciting.........can't wait for the next installment!
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